Bad Habits

I have a bad habit of pushing people away.
I have a bad habit of taking things too far and taking things too seriously.
I have a bad habit of taking things out on people that have nothing to do with anything.
I have a bad habit of shutting down and shutting people out.
I have a bad habit of thinking about the future instead of focusing on the now.
I have a bad habit of being in a bad mood recently.
I have a bad habit of punishing myself because I have these bad habits.
I have these bad habits and I need to fix them.

Tidbits:

• I don't think I'm a fan of those friend jokes because in my experience, they aren't jokes.
• Often second best, second rate, second place. 
• Used to being easily replaced and forgotten.
• I can't squeeze shampoo out of a bottle. 
• I can't even hold a cup or open a water bottle. 
• I can barely scroll on my phone. 
• Guess I have to just relax and be a bit behind on my projects if I can't paint later today.